♥ Wednesday, November 19, 2008
jerjer..
im reali sori i hurt u so so much..
how i wish i nv told u how i felt..
i regretted letting u noe..
& nw i reali hate myself for being a bitch..
i reali hope i can ease ur pain alittle..
but i reali dunno how to..
wat u wan i can't giv u..
its jus like wat i wan he can't giv mi too..
tings r far too complicated & my feelings r damn confused..
i nv tot i wil fall into someting so complicated ever in my life..
& caused by mi myself..
sometimes i reali wonder wat e fuck do i reali wan..
fucking stop hurting ppl wil i..
but i jus can't stop e tears when i realised im losing u..
i hurt u & i hurt him..i dun deserve anyting..
when can i ever wake up & nt b so damn selfish anymore..
i reali wan to noe..can some1 jus giv mi a slap & awaken mi..?
*imissu*
memories left @ 8:19 AM
♥ Sunday, November 16, 2008
now i realise i dunno wat i reali wan..
& now i dunno wat to continue..
im damn confused..
memories left @ 4:42 PM
♥ Friday, November 14, 2008
its hurting like again..
cos tears reali rolled down tis time..
i tot i nv agn wil tear for u agn..
but i guess i reali recovered from e care u showed mi..
but nw im on e verge of breaking down once more..
i reali dunno how many times its gonna repeat..
i dunno how much more i can take..
i reali hate myself..
i hate myself for doin so much..
i reali did so much jus for u..
force myself..
changed myself to e kind of gf u wanted..
or i wil onli lose u..
u wun ever noe how i felt at tat period..
but after doin so much..
i reali wonder..
i can fel tat im impt to u..
but e problem is how impt..?
i reali love u..
i dun wan e dae where i hav to force myself to giv up on u wil come..
seriously..
u made mi hate myself so much once again..
i dun hate u but i hate myself..
memories left @ 4:11 PM
♥ Sunday, November 02, 2008
i noe u'r affected by wat i said or wat i told others..
i did said my frens advice mi to giv up..
i did said there r better choices..
but the final choice is up to mi..
so wat if all these r true?
the main ting is..i accepted none of the above choices..
i wil also get affected by wat others told mi bout u..
but then i always blive wat u told mi over others in e end..
its a matter of trust..
u told mi i can choose to blive wat u sae or wat others told mi..
im reali upset tat u dunno whether to blive wat i said after i explained to u..
after i did so much jus for u..isn't it so obvious tat i dun ned to lie?
i reali love u until i dun even noe y i can do so many tings jus for u..
afterall its stil ur choice whether u wan to trust & blive mi or nt..
but in my heart i reali wish so much tat u will blive mi..
it reali hurts mi so much when im so clear how truthful & faithful im to u..
but stil..u dun blive mi..
i wil prove to u i reali love u tat much..
& i swear i wun giv up u even if there's better choices..
im nt some bitch tat wil dump or betray u for a better dude or wat...
my conscience is clear & i hav nth to hide from u also..
u hav doubts wan ask mi anyting can jus ask also i dun mind..
i wil ans u directly wat im tinking..
i can tel u firmly tat e dae when i sae break to u wil nv ever come..
tis is smth i tot it over wif a veri clear mind so NO DOUBTS at all..
mayb u dunno but to mi u'r my everyting...
i reali hate it when ppl distort wat i mean or sae..
then its like all bcum my fault lidat when tats nt wat i meant =.=
its like im being accused of smth i nv sae or did..
i seldom show my temper BUT
tis is e onli ting tat wil 100% guarantee make mi pissed off or angry..
but 4get it..since its all misunderstandings..i wil take it as nth happened..
im jus tired of all these misunderstandings..tats all..
*p.s. - u'r my everyting*
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