♥ Tuesday, December 23, 2008
** from tis post onwards i wun mention bout *him* ever again..
unless him or anybody else were to bring up e topic & provoke mi again..
e hapi moments we once had tgt wil 4eva b precious memories to mi..
i wil keep it in my heart & nv 4get..
all i wan to erase from my memory is how much u hurt mi..
i always rmbed how much i once loved u..
how many chances i wan to giv u but end up its all wasted..
sori..im reali tired of everyting..
i given up..
from tis moment on u wil b out of my life completely..
all e best to ur life ahead.. **
went to party world last nite wif deardear & frens..
heard tis song 好心好报..
it was damn nice..
mayb cos it resembles mi & hubby's past..
how much he cares & love mi so much..
but i stil chose another over him cos i reali dunno how to let go..
hurt hubby damn much last time..
reading e lyrics made mi realized how much we suffered in e past..
but at least nw everyting's over..
im happily wif him now..
glad tat i met him..
he made mi walked out of my sufferings..
i wun regret e choice i made..
i chose hubby..
for a better relationship..life..
most impt i felt like being wif him more than anyone else..
方:落力为你好 得不到分数
你决定要跟他日後同步
他不懂爱惜你 我乐意操劳
邓:我决意爱他 祝我愉快吧
你最明白我痛极亦留下
伤得很重也不怕 我愿意等他
方:还看著你
邓:他会感动吗(方:看你在悬崖走路)
方:他却放下你(邓:他已跑掉吗)
方:只照顾自己
邓:我惯了爱他你怎样做
在悬崖还是我无退路
方:对你好 无人稀罕我好
无人欣赏我好
原来你习惯他一套
从来没有爱我 看得清楚 我知道
不必得到 不妨陪衬 但愿为你好
邓:他 从来都比你差
仍然死心爱他 垂头再度听他欺诈
祈求他说 爱我 为何尚未等到
可能 这秒时辰未到
方:最受罪也好 听听你哭诉
你说难过总比分手更好
邓:我说几多的女主角 也受过煎熬
方:情况坏到
邓:他也许做到(方:你信任来年一日)
方:他答应做到(邓:他也许做到)
方:统统都做到
合:我也似你的无从劝告
宁愿牺牲都不愿却步
方:对你好 无人稀罕我好 无人欣赏我好
原来你习惯他一套
从来没有爱我 看得清楚 我知道
不必得到 不妨陪衬 但愿为你好
邓:他 从来都比你差
仍然死心爱他 垂头再度听他欺诈
而明知你 爱我 我竟扮未知道
好人 恕我未能做到
方:你当我是知己 我看得到
我当你是一生前途
邓:彼此也是沉迷盲目控制不到
合:怎么好都等不到
方:怎去做 无人珍惜我好
无人喜欢我好
原来要学会他一套
从来没有吻过 记得清楚 我知道
不必得到 不妨陪衬 但愿为你好
邓:好 从来都知你好(方:未够好)
为何他不够好(方:我不够好)
原来我又与他拥抱
仍然相信我会有好心得好报
可能 到某日会知道
memories left @ 4:32 PM
♥
to 'hi' ~
pls dun b a dumbass la hoh..
i blog a post for a reason okie..
u narrow minded freak dun understand then dun kp..
wat u noe about my him..my relationship & stuffs..
wat right u hav to comment on other ppl's personal life..
i blog tat post to clarify for myself can..
cos some childish idiot impersonate my godbro jevin to tag..
accusing mi of e tings i nv did..
& HE sent mi sms insulting mi when he is in e wrong..
i nv wanted to sae out wat he did but since he's telling ppl tat i 2time him run wif another guy..
then y i stil leave face for him?
tis is a personal blog..
if u'r fucking buay song wif wat i wrote then pls fuckoff..
dun talk crap in my tagboard & pollute it..
u sae leave some face for myself then tink bout urself 1st la k..
u noe NTH
SO...dun comment on other ppl's personal life without knowing e true details..
jer :
hi 'hi', jer speaking. (;
as my baby has mentioned, its her personal life.
personal - concerning or affecting a particular person or his or her private life and personality
understood? PS. omg i can't believe i need to explain the meaning of personal -_-
sooo, anyway, if you finally somehow or another anyhow hopefully maybe understand what i mean,
i'll thank you if you can nicely kindly gracefully beautifully fuck off. (;
PSS. i seriously don't think you have the rights to comment on people's personal life, with a hobby like yours of
spamming at people's blog, i can't imagine how great a personal life YOU have. hoho. merry christmas btw. ;D
cya 'hi', wait, no, don't cya 'hi', bye! ^^
memories left @ 4:27 AM
♥ Sunday, December 21, 2008
TO *U SHOULD NOE WHO U'R*
i guess he's desperately finding a new gf cos he's always at e top of my frenster update list recently..
LOL..cos he's adding damn lots of new gals around his area..where? *CK..
I onli pity e gal tat wil end up being his gf in future bcos of his sweettalk..
who would wan a bf who can send a same sms example "wat u doin" to like 10gals at e same time?
including his own gf..wth..
flirting like nobody's business even when he has a gf..
favourite past time hobby?
sweettalking & flirting gals on msn..
problem is he wun sweettalk 1 or 2 gals at a time ar..
is a lot at a time..10 also not a problem..
hmmm..then c end up which toopid gal wil get hooked lo hoh?
am i rite to sae tat idiot?
dun tink i dunno wat u r tinking..
play gals ur hobby rite? make them suffer..
u urself told mi tat..cos u hate gals who flirt around..
so u rather go play them FOR E SAKE OF REVENGE..
& NOT considering tat it wil hurt mi in e 1st place..when im stil ur gf..
seriously fucker..all gals r e same to u..
none of them is e special gal for u..
& u wun seriously go cherish them..
tats e worst part of u..
cos u urself also claimed u dunno how to LOVE..anyone..
but quite true la cos u reali dunno wat is love..seriously..
if u dunno how to love someone then dun sae u love her..
e feeling of living in ur lies & betrays is damn torturous..
Eventually i left u gave up on tis relationship cos i dun wan to live in ur lies..
i dun wan a life a relationship lidat..
its making mi suffer like hell..
& u dun even understand how i felt..
u sae tat u dun wan to hurt mi so u lie to mi & keep tings from mi..
but hav u ever tot of my feelings when u do tings behind my back wif other gals..when u betrayed mi?
its not a matter whether i noe wat u did or dunno..get e fucking point?
its whether U DID IT OR NOT!!
cos a fact is 4eva a fact..its always there..
sooner or later it wil b exposed..its jus a matter of time..
if not i wun found out wat u did behind my back also..
dumb ass..dun live in a world of ur own..wif ur own fucking theories..
can't u jus care & tink of other ppl's feelings 1st b4 u do anyting..?
i dun wan to admit it but afterall seriously i feel tat ur love is jus a lie..
fucking stop sending those boliao idiotic sms la hoh..
i treated u nt bad in e past but ask urself how u treated mi la hoh?
now come sae mi bitch sae mi prostitute..
wtf?
u urself 2time mi 2 times okie..dun forget tat fact..
2time normal filng then i stil can close one eye la hoh..
problem is u ask urself wtf u did la ok?
u fuck wif tat 2 bitch..
i noe liao wat i did i ask u?
i tried fucking hard force myself to accept e fact & forgiv u..
once is enuff le can..stil 2 times..u fucking repeat e same mistake
& hurt mi 2 times..
when i needed u where r u?
when i exposed u..u onli noe how to push mi aside..ignore mi..sae im irritating..
seriously..wat more u noe?
wat more u did to care for my feelings?
u onli noe how to sae accept e fact tat u hav change..
if not then break..its u tat told mi to accept it or else fuckoff..
dun forget wat u said tat hurt mi like hell..
during tat period u betrayed mi betrayed my trust..
when im at my lowest accepting e fact tat u suddenly sae u dun wan to meet mi so often..
who is always there for mi? jeremy..
his care for mi i can feel it see it veri clearly for myself..
e onli ting i can sae y i brokeup wif u & accepted him..
is jus cos u dun treat mi as gd as he treated mi..
dun fucking blame mi bitch or wateva..
cos its u tat hurt mi so damn much until my heart given up hope on u..
all in all u can onli blame urself for not cherishing mi when i treat u so gd love & care for u so much..
& tis led mi in felling for jer wanting to b wif him..
cos its fucking obvious being wif a bf like him wil b much better than being wif u..
i gave in fucking much to u more than i took from u..tis u should b damn clear..
u should b veri clear how much u did for mi..
e feeling of wanting to b wif him is stronger than b wif u..
cos it reali true im happier when im wif him..
he cares for my feelings..at e veri least..
u? onli noe how to ask mi help u do tis do tat..
im not ur dog can..? can't u do someting for mi also?
end up u stil disappoint mi..there's nth much u r willing to sacrify for mi..
if u can't giv mi wat i wan..nt e kind of bf i need..y can't u jus let mi go isn't it?
we can't get anyting from forcing its not love..
y can't u jus b more mature & understand tat point?
& stil fucking idiot come sms & sae im a prostitute?
when i nv 2time u b4 we brokeup?
pls get ur facts rite & stop fucking accuse mi..
i onli b wif him after we brokeup..its e fact..
i dun ned to 2time u can..
im not like u tis kind of fucker..
tat time i wanted to break wif u..
u threatened to beat my frens..beat jer..beat wateva la hoh..
damn childish..
u asked for a chance..
i agreed & went back to u..
how much i dun wan to hurt jer but i stil gave u tat chance..
he said he wil wait for mi..he reali did..
so i dun even need to 2time u..get e point idiot?
ur sms jus nw reali did provoked mi alittle..& tats wat u wan rite?
childish bastard..get a life can?
& fuck off..
u always sae gals r bitch jus bcos 2 of ur ex u reali loved hurt u damn much..
but then when u met a gd gf..ask urself did u cherish or nt?
if no..then dun fucking blame others for turning u into a fucker lidat ok..
seriously..sick & tired of ur childishness..
*simplyfuckoff*
memories left @ 5:13 AM
♥ Monday, December 15, 2008
To U:
i noe there's nth i can do but sae sorri..
wat's done is done..
everyting hav ended..
i wun allow myself to turn back ever again..
i noe i hav hurt u..
but afterall its stil better for mi to make my choice to leave u..
dragging on is seriously no point..
i hope u reali wil understand..
love is nt forcing mi to stay when my heart hav already left..
since e dae u start to hurt mi..
tat period was hell to mi..but u r nt by my side..
u jus pushed mi away..
u wil nv understand how i gone thru it..
i gave us another chance but it onli gave mi more time to realise my heart for u was already halfdead..
given up hope long ago..
its nt wat i can control..
i dun wish to hurt u too..
but everyting's fated i guess..
im unable to force myself to turn back act like i stil love u..
its seriously torturing mi inside..
it wil hurt u much more if i continue drag on..
so finally i decided to make my decision..
harden my heart..make sure i leave u once & for all tis final time..
if u reali do love mi like u claimed..
all i wanted is u to wish mi happiness..
but u didn't noe..
i jus wanted a simple life simple relationship wif e guy i love..
u made it seemed so difficult in e past..
i tried & tired to save our relationship but after so many tings happen..
i guess my heart hav given up without mi even knowing..
im reali veri sori..u hav hurt mi like hell few mths back..
but now i noe i hav hurt u too..i dun hav a choice..
its seriously torturing mi inside..its better to tel u e truth earlier..
i wish u wil find someone better than mi somedae..
hopefully by then u wil noe how to cherish her..
cherish e gal tat reali treat u gd..love u wholeheartedly..
i wish u wil find ur true happiness somedae..
*nthbutsorry*
memories left @ 2:31 PM
♥ Saturday, December 13, 2008
reali. its always. u nv failed to make mi *smile*
make mi hapi..
every moment i onli felt blessful. happiness inside of mi..
bcos u r there wif mi..
u'r always there for mi..
regardless when where or any reason y..
cos u r always there..
u cared alot alot alot seriously alot.. jus for mi..
nv did anyone actually did or cared so much for mi..
other than my parents..
always tinking everyting for my benefit & nt hurting mi even alittle..
consoling mi..cheer mi up..advising mi wheneva im at my lowest..
everyting u did is heartfelt..
making mi feel tat i reali dunno wat more i can do for u..
i wan u to b hapi also..
i reali wna b wif u..reali..
dunno how many times how many moments i felt tat way so strongly..
wishing i could jus forget everyting..
jus to b wif u..
but i guess time is stil needed ba to settle tings out first..
many tots of uncertainty hav been occupying my mind recently..
making mi damn moodless sometimes..
cos i reali dunno wat i should b to make tings more simple..
wat i always wanted was jus simplicity..
but seriously it seems so difficult..
sometimes i reali feel so bad..
how i wished tings were nv tis complicated..
*irealiwonderwhentatdaewileventuallycome*
memories left @ 7:58 PM
